I MUST SAY, YOU GUYS ARE ROCK STARS!!
In all reality, its up to me whether I pick up a cigarette or not, but the longer I continue to stay quit and just deal with the feelings (usually the ones I am trying to usually run from) I am a success! I have realized that support is really important....especially on the days things are REALLY tough and I WANT to smoke. I may WANT to smoke, but I don't NEED to smoke and that is amazing! Five months ago when I was a pack a day smoker, I was so addicted (physically and mentally) that there was no choice in whether or not I would smoke....I just lit up like always! I had resigned myself to the fact that I would probably die with a cigarette in my hand and at a much younger age than was necessary.
Today, I have a lot of hope that I can stay quit. I choose to stay smoke-free and read blogs from other successful quitters and try to encouragement others because I realize that some days I may feel perfectly fine and other days I may feel like smoking... I just don't have to. I have decided that I would rather deal with a certain level of uncomfortably and delay smoking those NASTY cigarettes for ten minutes to an hour because the cravings ultimately go away! It is much easier to remember why I quit and why I choose to stay quit with the help of my blogging buddies than to try to requit!
I have been clean and sober for over twenty years and I know that it took me about two years before the cravings for drugs and alcohol pretty much diminished. After that, is was a lifestyle change. Even when I get stressed, the idea of drinking or using is not even an option for me. I think quitting smoking is a lot like quitting drugs and alcohol. It becomes second nature after awhile. It would be nice if the "awhile" was tomorrow but I know it takes a long time to unlearn a habit. I smoked for over 30 years. Its going to take awhile before my brain remembers that smoking a cigarette is not an option for me anymore. I think my brain is just confused by the weather change which means its so much more convenient to go outside and suck down poison. I hope all of you are doing well too.