Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Officially on Vacation! Still Not Smoking Although I Did Really Consider Smoking Hookah as it Looks Nothing Like a Cigarette! CAN WE SAY DENIAL???
Wasssssssssup! I am still smoke free but let me tell you, I am in a hotel right near a Hookah lounge and really had to force myself to walk past it and not stop. For those of you who have never seen or smoked a hookah, it is smoking out of a large waterpipe and since it looks nothing like a cigarette, I was in DENIAL for a hot minute and my mind kept telling me that a little flavored hookah tobacco would be a really nice way to relax and chill. I mean, its not really smoking I told myself....I was right about to go into the lounge to go buy me some Carmel Apple flavored stuff and felt that tugging like, "That's not really a good idea." I kept walking but damn that was a close call! Its amazing how easy it is to think one thing is different than the other! I mean tobacco has Nicotine in it and for me, Nicotine is highly addictive! I used to tell myself all kinds of crazy things to justify staying high on drugs. I really have the mind of an addict! Not a good thing really.
When I got back to the hotel, I still wanted some hookah so I took a look at my laptop and looked at all of the money I have saved by giving up the disgusting habit! According to my calculations, I first started the quit process with the patch in October. I only bought one pack from October to November 11th. I then started Chantix on November 11, 2008. I have not bought any cigarettes so I have saved a total of about $1200.00! My average cost of smoking cigarettes was about $4.50 a day! It definitely adds up. I have a lot of days that have added up too. I am not exactly sure how many today but I need one of those day calculators! How do I get one? I am sick of doing it myself.
Anyway, it rained a lot today and when I came back from sightseeing, I feel deep asleep! I need to get up early to pack as I am leaving for Cape Cod, Provincetown on the afternoon ferry! I am so glad I did not rent a car here. Its super expenive to park. Besides, driving does not help with relaxing and I have really needed to relax! I will try to post again! Hope everyone is doing well.