I am feeling a bit better today. I have been having terrible cravings the last couple of days but they seem to be subsiding. I went to an AA meeting last night and that seemed to help. Smoking not only sounded good but a drink with a cigarette sounded even better! I saw people I have not seen in a long time and they were blown away by the fact I quit smoking. I also saw new people actively engaged in their addiction...wanting to rob pharmacies and such. I do not want to be that addicted person so I will go to another meeting tonite and reach out and be of service. I have been clean and sober for a long time so I do know what to do to stay that way. My worst day sober is DEFINITELY better than some of my days using. For me its really important to remember where I came from and be willing to share it with others.
Peace,
Diva
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I wish I could find the words to tell you how proud I am of you. "I'm proud of you" just doesn't cut it. I grew up with an alcholic father who robbed me of most of my childhood. He was a pack a day smoker who drank from the time he got up until the time he went to bed and was physically abusive to my mom. In two weeks it will be the 4 year mark of when my mom, husband, brother and I had to drive all night and day to Tennessee (from IL) to take him off of life support after two weeks in the ICU as "John Doe". He was very lost and sick, but I still loved him because he was my dad. If he had been able to find the strenth to quit, as you have, I might still have had a chance to have a relationship with him, instead of just finding closure in his death.
If you can find your way out from the alcohol, you can definately do this. I have probably more faith in you than anyone else now. I've seen how hard it is dig your way out, and you've done it. 60 days, way to go!
Ok, enough sappiness. I'm going to go dry my eyes and do some laundry.
By the way, I'm proud of you. :-)
Lynda, thanks so much for the support. You brought a tear to my eye. I am so sorry about your dad. It breaks my heart when I see people who are capable of getting clean but they choose not to. My mom died from lung cancer at 49 before ever thinking about how her alcoholism and cigarette smoking effected her family. She only quit smoking and drinking when she was dying. How sad that our parents did't wake up till up was too late. I do not want to have those kinds of regrets and I am glad you don't either. Hopefully, your kids will never have to experience what we had to. Thanks for being proud of me...I am proud of you! The cravings is subsiding, Thank God! I am at a 5 from an 8! WTG huh? It will soon pass. I am at a 3-4 most of the time so I can handle that. Happy New Years.
Peace,
Diva
Happy New Year's to you, too. It'll be a big year for all of us!
Diva,
I'm so happy for you. You've done great with this!!! Way to go.
Mz Diva, you are awesome, and I'm proud of you, too.
Ditto! Keep going strong!!!
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